Ride Your Heart 'Til It Breaks - a romance by Deborah Hawkins


Sometimes life brings you to a split second when you suddenly understand everything is  about to change forever.

But now Stan knew he didn’t want to be the shallow bad boy Marilyn had described.    He wanted to be the man Carrie Moon had loved.  

Loving him was all that had kept her alive.  The emptiness of her marriage had made the ache of lost love burrow deeper into her heart and soul.

Carrie stood transfixed between worlds: life, but emotional death if she left alone as he wanted, or death in all forms if she stayed, and the fires reached them.

On a cool October evening in 1994, attorney Karen Moon enters an enchanting little jazz club, in San Diego and unexpectedly falls hopelessly in love with the star attraction, trumpeter Stan Benedict.  Although Stan is a world class flirt, who has every woman in the audience longing to go home with him, Karen hears a deeper truth in his music.   Behind the performer’s confident, shallow mask is a vulnerable, lonely man longing to be loved.

Karen risks her chance of partnership at Warrick,  Thompson by secretly crossing ethical boundaries  to save the club from destruction by her client, Waterfront Development.  She and Stan begin a  tumultuous affair that culminates in an unplanned pregnancy and a hasty marriage.  But their relationship is increasingly threatened by the  demands of Karen’s job as a highly paid securities lawyer and by the rising crescendo of Stan’s frequent infidelities.  Through mounting heartbreak, Karen struggles to hold on to Stan until they are swept apart by a tide of  personal and professional loss.

Thirteen years later, longing for forgiveness, Stan reappears in Karen’s life.  Now a superior court judge and married to Warrick, Thompson partner Howard Morgan, Karen is faced with Howard’s threats to destroy her if she leaves their marriage.

Ride Your Heart ‘Til It Breaks is an unforgettable, intricately woven tale of passion, loss, self-discovery, and redemption.

Deborah Hawkins is also the author of the award winning Dance For A Dead Princess.